Um, memorial day is this weekend. WTF?

NO, but seriously, it’s been a year since I graduated already? 

I thought school went by fast, real world is cruising doing 90 down the highway. For fuck sakes, can I hit some traffic to slow down for a second. I feel like I have been so busy working I haven’t even had the chance to realize what else is going on? I guess this is normal right? I mean busy is good but I finally just came up to the surface for some air and realized all of whats happening around me. 

365. It’s been over a year since Graduation. That doesn’t scare me. What scares me is that I just realized it’s been a year and I need to accomplish more than what I did this year. We spend so much time trying to figure out what do after Graduation that by the time we start to figure out, we have wasted a year in a sense.  I feel like the year after graduation is just a year to transform. Thats it.  I am finally getting comfortable with everything and it’s been a year. I’ve been living with my roommates for a year already and I feel like I just moved in a month ago. When you are in and out and doing your own thing, it’s like you forget your here sometimes. Who would of thought I would forget that I am living home, the kid who never wanted to move home in the first place. Ironic. 

Memorial Day Weekend. Um Hello Summer? Where the hell did this come from? Last time I looked, pretty sure I was still waiting to see if it was going to snow so I could get a day off from work. I don’t even know how to go about this weekend. I mean, of course I do, but that’s not the point, drink duh. It just doesn’t feel the same this year. Three day weekend, can’t complain there but the only Memorial Day I have known about was the beginning of party season with friends and summer jobs. Now, it’s time to squeeze all the fun into 48 hours and be extremely busy at work. Quite a difference. Will it even be enjoyable? Only one way to find out..

I haven’t even had a chance to catch up with myself let alone realize that it has been over a month since I wrote a blog. That has never happened before. It has become one of the major differences between college and the real world. 

Remember, now that college is over..there are no breaks like in school that dissect the year apart. You have to take each week in stride and make it count because it is going to go by fast, especially the summer. Enjoy it and don’t forget to come up for a breathe of fresh air once in a while- work hard to play hard!

So my alma mater has been calling me over the last few days asking me to take part in a short survey. My immediate reaction is..I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR THIS NOR DO I CARE. College is over, don’t remind me please. Like what could they possibly want from me? or more importantly…do they honestly even care what I say?  Probably not.

A short survey? Really? About what?

Do you want to know where I am now? If the last four years prepared me for the “real world?” Do you want money? Don’t beat around the bush, just ask. Oh and here is your answer: The day I am done paying back my loans is the day I can finally sit back and relax. The LAST thing on my mind is going to be ” Well, now I can give back to my school because it’s the right thing to do.”

One thing I can’t stand. Don’t try to do something just because its the right thing to do. If anything it makes you become fake. Be real with yourself, don’t try and just do it because you want to be a “good” person. People are going to recognize that before they even think of you as doing the “right” thing. People find the “fake” in others now a days over the “real” because it is a constant competition among us Americans. It’s a dog fight. You could almost say everyone is constantly ranking each other but guess what? Each person has their own system and their own rankings. Therefore, this system is flawed because each person has their own opinions creating how they view and try to rationalize amongst others. Most commonly stated as “judging” in leman terms. 

Back to the survey, when I answered the phone the first time, they verified that it was me speaking and if I had a few minutes to talk. Well, I was at my “big boy” job so I politely said “anytime after 5 I would become available,” because that is what my life has succumbed to now. There are no more classes, no more three day weekends, no more thirsty thursdays. There is life after 5 o clock and two days we like to call “the weekend.” Anything before 5, I am property of a company doing work. Thats it. 

I didn’t want to sound like an asshole. I could tell this person was simply a college student doing there job and getting paid by the university to more than likely put some beer money in their pocket. I can’t be an asshole to this person, I’ve been there before, having a few extra bucks in your pocket for the weekend can make a world of a difference. It could easily mean the difference between a 12 pack or 30 pack, a cream cheese bagel or a bacon,egg and cheese bagel. Thats the difference between a good night and a great night, between a okay breakfast and a great breakfast.

When they called me back after 5, I couldn’t pick up the phone. I just couldn’t. I knew whatever they were going to ask me I was going to have nothing nice to say. Your parents always told you “if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all,” well I used that to rationalize my decision because there was no way they were going hear what they wanted. More importantly, I was going to tear into this college student. Any question this kid was going to ask, I was not only going to give advice on how the “real world” is and college doesn’t prepare you for it but I was going to make sure to state why. Now, you may think this may be useful for the survey and you are probably right. However, I am not going to give my take on college to someone who probably doesn’t care and honestly not even there problem, they are just doing there job. If I am going to give anything back to my college regarding a survey, I would want a phone call from a school administrator because they think they are untouchable. I don’t want to speak to a middle man, I want to speak to the source. The people who have the ability to change the outlook on college if they wanted to be true to themselves and stop hiding behind the walls of what they think college is but everyone else knows what it’s not. So, next time they call, I’ll be sure to explain if they want my answers- I want to speak with someone who made the survey, not someone doing the dirty work for them.